The reason I really feel like I need a break?
I don’t sleep.
I can’t.
I stay up, I read books, I walk around, I read some more.
Mostly Chuck Palahniuk, all his books,over & over again. Careful not to start with “Fight Club” , because after that, every single male charakter turns into Tyler Durden.
With insomnia, nothing is real.
Everything is far away. Everything
is a copy of a copy of a copy.
In the past two or so months I have lost about 16 kg.
Not because I am trying to lose weight, not because I eat less,
Just so.
Which is why my husband did what every responsible husband would do,
he brought me 3 sandwiches for breakfast & then took me to the doctor.
The doctor sent me to the hospital for some blood tests, & if you know me, you know I hate blood tests.
There was crying, a lot of it, in the car, in the supermarket, (we needed some snacks!) & in the hospital.
My little family, they were all so wonderful, kisses from my baby George, Anthony trying to convince me that it is not actually that bad, & Emily saying “don’t worry Mama, it’s just a doctor!” ,
so I went,
they took my blood,
& the day was ruined.
That afternoon, while Anthony was working,
I went upstairs to get a blanket.
On my way down the stairs I heard someone splashing,
I heard giggling,
I thought “this can’t be good”
I opened the kitchen door to find this:
Emily had tried to make breakfast.
For a very tired Mama, who had just been jabbed with needles & her blood taken from her,
who had been poked into her chest & stomach so hard it left me bruised,
this was too much.
George was grabbing hands full of Organic Farm Chocolate Stars , putting them into his mouth,
Emily tried to get him to use a spoon, saying he could eat “a tiny bit of mine breakfast“,
the floor covered in milk that was slowly turning into chocolate milk..
It was one of those situations where you can either break down & cry,
or you laugh.
So I laughed.
Always try to see the good side of things,
at least they shared, right?
Wishing you a joyful day,
♥
ps// I am sleeping better now, thanks to valerian root.
I’m glad you were able to get a good laugh out of it – though I probably would have cried! I’m glad you are sleeping better and hopefully there’s nothing else to worry about!
My last time was just right now, thanks to you. I am both crying and laughing while reading your words. It sounds so familiar. But then this is the kind of decision we need to make almost every day. Thanks to our children, I believe, we learn to choose to laugh. Though I am a little bit worried about you – I hope you feel better. Perhaps you need to try the alternative medicine? I wish we could come over and play with Anthony and Emily , and send you to rest for a little while. In the meantime please except the huge hug of understanding…:)
Oh my dear! I’m so sorry to hear you’re not sleeping. Sleep deprivation is the worst sort of torture. I’m so glad you have some valerian root to help. And that you’re surrounded by love (even messy love). I face the laugh or cry dilemma daily. I usually cry. That’s just my nature. Hugs and love to you, Sister.
Well at least the floor was clean
) I’m glad you’re sleeping better now *hugs*
Sorry that you haven’t been sleeping well, I hope the valerian root continues to help. Sleep deprivation can cause the littlest molehills to seem like mountains.
The last time I had the choice to laugh or cry was when my baby knocked my huge bowl of homemade macaroni and cheese to the floor. The hairy, dirty carpet that hadn’t been swept in a week. I had really been looking forward to eating it! But my son was there too, and he laughed, and so I couldn’t *not* laugh. I think I still cried a little on the inside though…
I have the same reaction to having my blood drawn. It will totally ruin a day.
On the other hand, those babes of yours sure look adorable rolling around in all that spilled milk.
Wishing you health, dear lady!
I’m so sorry sweetie. It’s hard when those things happen but I just try to laugh too.
Schöne Sauerei, auf sowas freu ich mich auch später, wenn ich Kinder hab
in so einer situation darf man nicht weinen, dafür ist es zu niedlich
hey dear, I’m glad the valerian is helping. insomnia and sleep deprivation are hellish. I’ve been fairly wellish, got rather sick, but I’m better now, except for congestion. I’m so enjoying living with J (for the most part.
there are some things that take some getting used to. the food disappears so much faster with him here lol.) I miss talking to you. We’ve been trying to get internet, but its not really working out well. The DSL company is sending someone to look at our line, but they won’t be here until next thursday, so it will be a while. mama got married, which was interesting, I’m happy for her. miss talking to you dear. take care. hopefully we can talk more soon. love,
Caroline